Ack! I'm a little scared.

Neil and I just bought a lot to build on! I'm scared but really excited. It seems that lately we've spending a fortune but really I need to think of as investing...not spending. We're invested in Maddie's (and future child(s)) education, we're investing in real estate, we're investing (just a little, I'm chicken!) in stock.....whew that sounds better than saying I spent a whole hell of a lot of money. In other news I feel pregnant! SO far the one test I've taken was neg., but I'm not due to start yet so I'm going to wait a week or so and retest. I just feel pregnant.....*sigh* we're going to Disney in 4 months. Oh well, I won't be too big (if I'm even pregnant).

It's been decided

that if I can find a good part time job (like Starbucks! one or two shifts a week) that when we have another baby I'll be staying home for a year. Eek! While I'm super excited, I'm also scared to death. I've never been the stay at home type. I like work....but seeing how breast feeding is really important to us, and I hate hate hate fucking pumping (I tried with M) I'll be home at least a year.Hopefully by that point the baby would only need a couple of feedings a day, so maybe we wouldn't ahve to pump. Or if we did just once a day. I aslo started thinking about how much busier we'll be with two kids. LIke with Maddie we just cahnged our life to fit her. With a second you can't really do that. While I worked with M she still had me to herself every night, with a baby I'll be sharing my time. So by staying home, I'll get some quality baby/mommy time too. I think we have it planned out. We'll start trying in July/August 07, the baby will be born around May so M, baby, and I will have about 3 months and then M will start school, so the baby and I will have 9 months. All this sounds great, we just ahve to see if I can find a job with benifits that will fit the needs of our family.

How important is Sex?

This post of Jennster's combined with a conversation I had last night, got me to thinking. How important should sex be in your relationship? Seriously Neil and aren't not really sexual people. I mean we enjoy sex, but it isn't something that takes precedent in our relationship. We're very intimate people, but being intimate for us doesn't always or even most of the time lead up to sex. I mean we're not celibate or anything....But I honestly can say that if either of us couldn't have sex for an extended period of time that we would never miss a beat. I guess we have so much more, he's my friend, my rock, my provider, the father of my child, the man of my dreams, and so much more. Sure he's my lover....But for us that comes after everything else. At the end of the day, if I crawl in bed and moan how exhausted I am, I don't have to worry about Neil trying to paw all over me. My friend that is getting married in March made note that she hopes their relationship never comes to this. Why? I mean I guess since they were sexual maybe from the beginning? Neil and I didn't have sex for awhile because we lived in two separate cities. Everything we knew about one another was through phone conversation. Maybe I'm a freak but I consider us lucky. I don't think you can make a relationship work on sex, but if it just happens to be an added bonus then that's great.

Take a little Trip

Neil and I went to Destin for a long weekend, we left Thursday morning and came back late Sunday night. We had a freakin blast even though it was like a million degrees outside. We stayed at this little bungalow right in the middle of all these huge ass skyrise condos.We had like our own little private beach and pier, and this private deck with a pool. Thursday night we went to the Swamp Thursday night, and they had a foam party. It was fun, if you don't mind being sticky and wet. Friday we went out on the boat for the day. Let me add here that it was Boat week in Destin this past week....so Crab Island was packed. They also had a poker run on Saturday, which is basically about 30 or 40 million dollar race boats that go bar hopping along the intercoastal waterway from Panama City to Pensacola, Fl. Neil and I rented Jet Ski's for the day on Friday and my legs and arms hurt for three freakin days! But it was so worth it, we had a blast racing each other, and jumping waves in the gulf. Saturday night we went back tot he Swamp to watch Candlebox....who was fucking awesome! The lead singer from Candlebox looks soooo much different that he did 10 years ago! I was a little disappointed that they didn't play but like 45 minutes, but it was hot as hell and there was like 2000 people in there so I didn't mind leaving. Then we hit the strip club.....bowchicabowow! Neil and I went back to the room and fell asleep on the beach, and didn't wake up until sunrise (lol, which was only like 3 hours after we got back) We had a great time, and I have pics but I can't upload them until tomorrow. We hope to go to Vegas sometime this fall, so this should hold us over until then.

Maddie's birthday is the 4th of August

now repeat 100x. M's school has a board at the front of the office that changes every month for birthdays. When I dropped her off this morning I noticed that the 2nd birthday was my child's, then I noticed the date beside it said 8-5. I thought huh, her birthday is the 4th not the 5th...or is it? WHen I got out to the car I called Neil and asked, just to be sure. His response....the first week of August. Well no shit. The only reason you remember that is beacause that is the ONLY week ever that you've had to wash your own clothes. I asked is it the 4th or the 5th. "well if you wouldn't have confused me with two days I could have told you.' Well yeah thanks for all your help. now "buh bye." Thankfully my mother is smarter and more helpful than my husband or myself...my child's birthday is the 4th. Thank God, I now can regain my title as Mother of the Year.

The greatest compliment

Dj and I were talking about marriage the other night while Neil was giving Jill (Dj's girlfriend) some pointers about bowling. Why Neil was giving pointers I'll never know...She kicked him ass. But whatever, lol We were talking about marriages that work, and don't work, and what makes a successful marriage. None of this I have an answer too, I can only offer him what has and hasn't worked for me. He told me that he thought if he and Jill had a marriage as good as Neil and I do that they would be set for life. How when they discuss marriage we always come up as that perfect union. It made me smile. He also gave me some insight as to why it works so well. While Neil is a taker by nature and I'm a giver we both work to give and take for an equal balance. I've never really thought about it until he pointed it out to me. Now that I see that though, I think when we aren't getting along or one is just in a pissy mood maybe I'll be able to look and see why. Or I hope so anyway.

Good friends are hard to find

Neil and I got married young, had kids young....So out of our friends we are one of the few (read two) couples that have kids. I'm always typing about how great my friends are to ME, but do I ever talk about how great they are to Maddie? How they are always willing to pick her up if need be, or how they call/come by if they haven't talked to her in a few days. They're great about picking kid friendly activities, and they are great about playing and listening to her. Today I've been finishing up the remaining details of M's party this weekend, and while I was going over the guest list one last time I realized that every single one of our friends will be there. Not one of them acted as if they had/have better things to do than attend a 3 year old birthday party, and some of them even changed their plans so that they would be in town.